Saturday, March 12, 2011

May I rejoice

It is said that one can break an addiction if 21 days of abstinence are undergone. The withdrawals might be crushing, heart-breaking, the yearning for the desired can be so disheartening. But in the end, if I am able to be set free of my captivity by the grace of God, then, I believe looking back at the 21 days will appear to be but a moment, a wink from my Creator, a short second in time. But, at day 4, another 17 days feels like an eternity. How ridiculous, but really. I believe that every individual has an addiction. Everyone fills a void in their hearts with something, whether it be food, alcohol, relationships, cards, shopping, working out, reality shows, reading religious books, social networks, or what the 'holy spot' in our heart is really for, which is Christ alone.

And He is the one that I wish to fill my entire being. Move over everything else for the King is truly in town and He is the capture of my heart. May all else fade as I wish to be living in every fiber of my being for His glory. I want to exude the true love of Christ. I wish to glow from the inside out because He has made me, He has saved me, and He is alive in me.

I feel that I need to go back over that dreaded paperwork from last Saturday once again. Seriously, it could take me a lifetime to complete, and even then I would have to begin for a second time once I had finished. Identifying the sin, confessing it, and removing it from my life is such a challenge, but one that I am ready to face. I just need to know and feel that HE is on my side and that I am not alone; that others are willing to share unselfish love with me and deal with my moments of frustration, growing pains, and all the withdrawal effects. Help me.

Can we bake cookies together soon? Maybe a trip to the beach? Reading and conversation over tea? Movie night? And o, how I wish to make it to a waffle night one of these days J But, I am a one-on-one type if you haven’t noticed as of yet. Guilty am I. But I was made this way and I love the one who designed me. 

Philippians 4


11 comments:

  1. Corinne! Oh, let's do all of the above. How about some Bible reading and discussion? I want to hear how your time with your mom and sister went/is going. Beautiful heart. Let's rid ourselves of all else so God can take His rightful place in us.

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  2. Corinne, this brought tears to my eyes. So beautiful! Your words are so filled with love, its really touching. "that others are willing to share unselfish love with me and deal with my moments of frustration, growing pains, and all the withdrawal effects. Help me." hey! that's me, I would love to do that... and like Amanda said, all of those other things too haha. let's get together.

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  3. If you bake cookies I will taste test them :)

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  4. yes yes yes yes. yes. He's working on your heart. : ) and I'm always down for one on one time. always.

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  5. 21 days might not be it, you know? just think we should prepare our hearts in the face of formulas like that. thanks for sharing on this, corinne. so great. yes please on all of the last paragraph.

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  6. Jeremiah 31:3 "...I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with lovingkindness."
    Psalm 138:8 " The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O Lord endures forever--do not abandon the works of your hands."
    He is on your side. You are not alone.

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  7. I LOVE this! "I just need to know and feel that HE is on my side and that I am not alone; that others are willing to share unselfish love with me and deal with my moments of frustration, growing pains, and all the withdrawal effects. Help me."

    Yes! I would love to hang out with you! I live in Orange so we care close. When would you like to? Text me!

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  8. It is kind of ridiculous how challenging giving up addictions can be when they really are such a short bit of time in the scheme of eternity! I am a lot like you actually, I am SUCH a one-on-one person :-) Maybe we can get together for coffee or something soon?! I would love it! You are definitely not alone.

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  9. I love reading your blogs Miss Corinne Paget :) It feels as though you are just opening your heart and let everyone see what you are. Thank you for that. I too hate addiction, and it makes it worse when it feels like it will be forever until it will go away. God is so good though to help us take these addictions away. There is victory with Him. Keep pressing on. Praying for you! Also, I would love to chat and hang out whenever you're free!

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  10. corrine, you are not alone. thank you for allowing us to join you on this journey. know that i am praying for the pieces of your heart to be mended and in the mean time lets have a baking party. God is honored by your determination to not allow any other thing compete for His attention.

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  11. Corrine, I haven't really gotten to know you yet beside blog stoking, but would love to hang out one-on-one with you! ;) I love what you wrote about how God is on your side and you are not alone. That is such a great reminder. I would love to walk alongside you during these times. Thanks for being so open and honest. Lets hang out soon :)

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