Tuesday, June 14, 2011

A request for patience.

I am learning so much.
I am changing so much.
I am growing so much.
I am excited.
I am happy.

But, all of this newness is taking a lot of time to process. As you may have seen me write before, I am a slow processor. And there is a lot of information, a lot of knowledge. Eyes have been opened, ears have been cleaned, and my soul has gotten a new shine to it. I am stronger. I feel wiser. A season of change is ushering into my life. Its weird to be so so so aware of it. I have a lot to write about, but not enough time. I feel that I never have enough time. I don't have time to process. You can tell me that I could make it happen; maybe I could. But, I have a million and one reasons as to why I do not have enough time.

And so I am closing. I am shutting. I am withdrawing. I am backing off. I am separating. I am escaping. I am doing all of these things because I am in process. and the process is no where near finished. I don't know what to do as I'm trying to figure it all out. (I mean in every area of my life too as some of you have experienced). And I need time.

This may sound like a time of great confusion. I see it as growth and change into a woman that is more glorifying to God, honoring to Him, to myself, and to the people around me. I'm changing my life. I'm choosing who I want to be. Its just taking me time and that is really okay.

However. I am asking for your grace. I am asking for your patience. I am asking for you understanding. I am asking for your love, your prayers, your sister/brotherhood support. I am thankful for you.