It's been such a long while.
I've thought about posting numerous times-- haven't we all :)
I'm happy. Really happy with where I am at and where I am going. I felt the extreme freshness and freedom that a new year can ring in and I went with it one hundred percent. My resolutions exceed a list of 20 line times, but as I have shared with you before, I want to be consciously aware of where I am going, making the decision of who I am growing into being. To choose to be a better lover of Jesus, to choose what is healthy, to walk in the confidence that Lord has made me, choosen me and has never let my hand slip from His. He has always known what is happening, though I fail to look on the bright side beyond trusting in His faithfulness too often-- He's got it.
Often in life it seems like things 'just happen' and one has to clean up the mess or perhaps the distance that I feel exists between me and God can be depressing and lonely leads me to be stagnant in my own self pity. Who I am is not what happens to me. Who the Lord has created me to be is reflected in the things that I do, how I react, how I press forward, how I refuse (though sometimes I often fail to refuse) to believe that life is made up of what happens to you, the challenges you face, the lies and tricks of the evil one.
My life is to be of love. To be love for God and to love God. To honor Him every day and every hour of that day and every minute of that hour. Though I often feel defeated and sit in self sorrow, I can still press on towards what my purpose is. I can choose to see that it is not defeat, that pushing on shows I have overcome a boundary that has been placed in front of me and I am moving forward.
The Lord is gracious and compassionate, quick to forgive and rich in love.
May you feel His presence today, may He go before you and after you, may you see the difficult moments as a hurdle that you can overcome and the sweetness of defeating those little things that are holding you back from being all that you can be for the Lord.