Tuesday, June 14, 2011

A request for patience.

I am learning so much.
I am changing so much.
I am growing so much.
I am excited.
I am happy.

But, all of this newness is taking a lot of time to process. As you may have seen me write before, I am a slow processor. And there is a lot of information, a lot of knowledge. Eyes have been opened, ears have been cleaned, and my soul has gotten a new shine to it. I am stronger. I feel wiser. A season of change is ushering into my life. Its weird to be so so so aware of it. I have a lot to write about, but not enough time. I feel that I never have enough time. I don't have time to process. You can tell me that I could make it happen; maybe I could. But, I have a million and one reasons as to why I do not have enough time.

And so I am closing. I am shutting. I am withdrawing. I am backing off. I am separating. I am escaping. I am doing all of these things because I am in process. and the process is no where near finished. I don't know what to do as I'm trying to figure it all out. (I mean in every area of my life too as some of you have experienced). And I need time.

This may sound like a time of great confusion. I see it as growth and change into a woman that is more glorifying to God, honoring to Him, to myself, and to the people around me. I'm changing my life. I'm choosing who I want to be. Its just taking me time and that is really okay.

However. I am asking for your grace. I am asking for your patience. I am asking for you understanding. I am asking for your love, your prayers, your sister/brotherhood support. I am thankful for you.

9 comments:

  1. grace, patience, understanding, love, prayers, sisterhood, and support are yours in abundance! you are so valued! i love seeing what God is doing in and around and through you. it is beautiful. it is a process. it is refreshing to see someone committed to that process in a culture that neglects the value of the process in anticipation of the end result. He is transforming you into a more beautiful, more complete, more committed, more passionate lover of Himself. i see His fingerprints all over you and am honored to walk with you through this journey. p.s. come home soon, i miss you! xoxo

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  2. It is so awesome that God is bringing you through this season of change and you are embracing it. Change can be difficult, but I am seeing the value it can bring. It is through the change and difficult times that I tend to cry out to Jesus and be continually seeking after Him. As I look back on several times of change I see how God was working and transforming me. I am so grateful for those times. I will be praying for you, support you, and love you :) I am learning to how valuable it is during change or difficult times that instead of withdrawing that I am honest with myself, others, and God in what is going on and that I take a day every once and awhile to sit, write out my thoughts, talk to God about my frustrations, and be filled and renewed by Him. I will be praying that during this busy time you are able to find times to rest. :)

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  3. mmmm i feel you sista. all i have to say is a big SAME HERE. Jesus is just bringing us closre to Himself, that's all :)

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  4. I absolutely LOVE this!! Same as Zach, too!!
    I'm in the exact same boat with the whole, "I have a lot to write about, but not enough time". I feel like my life is moving so so so so so fast and that so much has been happening that its hard to keep up or inform people of exactly what's going on in my life (partly because I don't even know what's going on in my life! haha). But the LORD is in control and will set the pace...our job is just to remain. Remain still, remain responsive, remain attentive to His Spirit.... He will lead you in EVERY season and in every way!

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  5. it's awesome though. : ) awesome. : )

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  6. oh how i love you! i love reading your words Corinne, they are so sweet. i sense a sort of peace in your words, like you're calming down... i hope you are getting rest. i think you and i are learning very similar things right now. everything that you were saying i was like YES :) i pray that God will bless you in this time of change. i pray, even though it will be challenging and may hurt at some points, that you will be reminded of your sufficiency in Christ and reminded that God loves you so much, everything about you. take time to process. slow processing is good. i wish that i was more of a slow processor. this is good. love you.

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  7. Exciting time indeed!! Definitely praying for you to continue in this awesomeness. Thanks for being you and always recruiting me for your group :) hehe. While I wish I could get into your head and help push all the understanding out so we can share in your happiness, I will be patient. Only as long as you promise you will keep us updated!

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  8. you got it girl! I can't wait to spend time with you. whenever that time is, it will be great. just let me know :-) love you

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  9. <3 so much love for a beautiful woman who is being conformed to Christ and being shaped into a radically new being!!!!

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